pituitary

the weight in my pituitary means that there is a collection of heavy
indifferences, and they are gathered from all of the over. everyone does not
know how much gravity is involved with their lack of an opinion in this
direction or that.

i would measure and plot versus time. i would cross my fingers for a parabola.
a hyperbola. anything but linear.

anything but linear.

it is too early to know. the indications are not promising.

i think that i fear that i may have been missing for too long. there must be a
presence in order to keep up the counting. the counting is the most effort of
all.

i think about whelms, in versions of both over and under. there have been too
many whelms. i think that you can only count so many whelms, and then you are
done for, or you need to completely refresh, or become brand new. i am not sure
how to refresh from all of the whelms. i wonder if that means that 'done for'
was the right one.

it is overwhelming, the amounts of counting that you miss. it is also
overwhelming, the things that you are paid to worry about. i would like to get
paid to not worry about anything, but nobody gets paid not to worry about
anything. they get paid to worry as much as possible about as many things as
possible.

it is underwhelming, the unstorylikeness of going by. some people are able to
summon colours. i wonder if my colours miss the light, or miss the dark, or
miss a summons. some people like to say that they are colouring by saying the
word "melodrama". there are times that those people have the torches of
justification over their pointy shoulders, but there are other times that those
people can go and fuck themselves, because we have never owed a certain type of
observation to anybody at all.

but anyway, linear would be underwhelming.